I think Melo is a good dude. Amare too. Chandler, great guy. Love Shumpert, Felton was my favorite when he was last on the team. JR Smith is unintentionally hilarious. Novak too, in the complete opposite way. Jason Kidd aside, who is a monster, I really like the players on the Knicks right now. I even think Woodson is a good personality to run these guys, and Grunwald, until the Lin release, an underrated and effective GM.

Which makes my sudden ambivalence towards them very tricky. I still smile when I see Melo and Tyson goofing off in London on instagram, I still want success for these people, but I suddenly see the orange and blue and just feel disgust. The way you feel about a girlfriend who finally wronged you one last time. Every resentment and annoyance you long repressed just boils up all at once, to the point where you can’t even separate the causes. It’s surely an irrational hatred, but one I can’t deny.

I hate that uninformed fans are buying the company line that Lin was a quitter in the playoffs and was greedy in the offseason, which led to his departure. Like listening to a Republican spout on about the deficit, I’m not angry because I disagree, but because I know that it’s a completely fabricated and hypocritical point only brought out when convenient.

I hate that I’m supposed to have sympathy for Jim Dolan’s bottom line for some reason, and that a player costing the owner too much is somehow a legitimate reason to let a guy go, or that it matters that he may or may not be profiting off merchandise. Or that it’s even a debate that there wasn’t a major level of resentment by ownership towards a guy who became popular despite them, not because of them.

I hate that I can’t make a point about this team without spiraling into a long rant about everything wrong with the team. And that’s why I started this blog. I’ve typed several long, unpublished posts on my main blog about my feelings on the team, but it always becomes a mess of ideas and accusations. Those incomplete thoughts about what it’s like breaking up with a team will go here instead.

Here’s my deal. Knicks fan for life, spent High School in Brooklyn and am a current Brooklyn homeowner a short walk from The Zoo (Barclays. Gonna try to make the Zoo happen). I’m in for a share of season tickets, going to at least 7 games. Not a Nets fan, not yet, but happy to flirt a bit while on a break from the Knicks. Maybe I come crawling back to my abusive relationship in Midtown, maybe I stick with the new girl after the initial excitement wears off. We’ll see. I’m gonna talk my way through it here.